want you

i look so tired, i feel so tired.

how much it hurts at times
how much i think it just became a phobia
how much i know that there's no reason to be paranoid

should not be paranoid, scared, worried
because
i know i shouldn't.

afraid to sleep because afraid to have nightmares.
sent you a goodnight message when i'm not even sleeping
cause i just want to send you a message.
watched episodes of sad drama just to cry.
funny sarah, funny.

i think i'm bad. i have to understand. i want to be understanding. and i shall be. shall understand and know that you're just busy
smile me, smile
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should i bring my laptop tmr? or should i just lie to ms cheong that my charger is spoiled...