mini oreos and choc chip cookies for the sick, plz.

i got out of my bed thinking it's around 1pm. but it showed 08:22am on my clock. i forced myself to sleep, but cant. i went to bathe. couldnt find anything else to do after i bathe. watched tv. nothing nice early in the morning for me. i on my laptop. i watched wizards of a waverly place early in the morning. that's prolly the only thing that made me go 'ha ha ha ha ha'. i coughed about 32321981 times today. sniffed for 2394328 times today. my muscles are aching. im feeling the heat in my body. fever nightmare. i craved for choc chip cookies. that craving was big, really. i know i cant eat them. tried finding food. no food. no one's home. cooked cup noodles. 1 cup wasnt enough. i cooked another one. still hungry after two cups. pulled my aching body out to 7eleven. bought my new favourite mini oreos and choc chip cookies instead of a healthy meal. saw bubbletea shop. and couldnt resist the temptations of sour plum ice blend with jelly. bought it. went back home.

i can tell you one thing for sure that is right: i can ruin my body, very well. even knowing that it'll ruin me, i dont bother. i need to control. but im depressed.
text me when your phone is ok, i love you.